Go with the flow.......

"li,if kau nak naik lexus tu,kau tekan brake then engage start button.Other than that,sume almost similar tu camry".I must admit I was a little bit shocked.Coz it was something I wasnt expecting from the man who insya-ALLAH will be my father-in-law.Driving his car has always been a privilege,never an entitlement, as some would rather refer to it as.Knowing that I was even allowed to be near the lexus has brought a huge grin on my face.You should have seen it b.And yes,I was that same boy who crashed his 2nd car,burning a 12k hole in his pocket.Therefore,I am truly blessed.I lost my job due to retrenchenment,he bailed me out.....again.Thanks to him,I am once again employed,contibuting once again to the country's economy but most importantly,saving me from a dry spell that threatened my career.I was devastated,dejected,almost feeling unwanted by the working class.Isolated myself from friends,literally avoiding them althogh it seems quite obvious at times when we bump into each other.Dodging the sensitive question"keje mane kau skarang".I am indebted.I truly am.Alhamndullilah.I am happily employed with UMW(United Motor Works) dealing with forklift repair.Yup.Same old story.He bailed me out.A man I refer to as general because the aura I feel in his presence.Something similar to what I felt when I saw higher ranking officers in the army.A man of very few words.A man whose actions says it all.I dont speak to him often.In fact,its countable.haha.But i guess there are many ways for him to show that he is finally accepting me into the family.A lengthy conversation is definitely not it.

6 years and counting...........

b,I cannot believe u actually posted what i msg u ah b.Thanks b.Thanks for allowing strangers a sneak preview of what kind of person I really am.Potraying myself as someone who does not give a s*** when it comes to relationship is obviously failing.yup.we lasted this long.Kudos gerl B and A.Till now I still cannot believe thats what we call each other when ego just stood rooted on the ground,refusing to budge.What a world of difference between u and me.Polar opposites.U know why Im still here b?Yes,our views may differ but our objectives point to the same direction,if not,close.I still have the thesaurus we first boght together for myself coz of what I would label as 1 of the hilarious reason 1 could ever come up with."B,i dont really understand MOST of the few bombastic words u use and so Im buying myself a dictionary"haha.Inevitable.I realised then how significant it is to be able to convey your message across,and feel even more confident than you ever will be.I mean its not that its super perfect ,but at the very least,Its way better than my entire tertiary years combined.Hahaha.Yup.thats how bad it was.In retrospect,I admire us for having gone through what we have been through.Procrastination has been totally ommited from my memory.I mean,yah,at times but it has reasonably minimised.Never have I thought We could have gone this far.Its not that I dont trust u b.Its just me.Im afraid of screwing up.But knowing u'll be there every step along the way somehow spurred me on to go beyond my abilities,abilities that I never thought existed.Books?Novels?these were foreign to me but guess what,u got me hooked on "kite Runner" ah b.I would have died of boredom reading Enid Blyton(not sure whether I got the author's name right),what more Khaled Hosseini.Quality supercedes Quantity.Hmmm.........Finally,Those three words are starting to fall in the right places...b,how?leh jadi author tak?

Liverpool All The Way..........haha

A less scintillating,convincing display from Liverpool last weekend but I guess its relief watching them clinched the win.Like what I told the woman,"They need every Liverpoolians support if they were to win the title".Haha.Its not gonna be easy though but it worth hoping this time round coz they really have a great chance.Met up with part of the ex starbucks crew.In retrospect,Its amazing how majority have changed.haha.We were so gullible.naive,reckless,etc then.It feels de ja vu man............Its been approximately 6 mths since I last smoked.yay......thanks b.Never ever could have done it without u.Swear.I guess whether or not u changed as a person very much depends on you.Your peers are there to guide,spur you on,motivate you,etc.Ultimately its up to you.Friends can sway your perception.I agree.But you choose who to follow,who to look upon as a role model.I would consider myself as someone whou could have gone either way if not for the timely intervention of a spesial someone.I am proud of who I am today and till this very day,I never fail to ask myself what if I had chosen the other path.........

why does it bother me anyway...........

Confession........If I were your friend...I would have no qualms about going up to your father for a job.But i'm not.I mean obviously there is a certain expectation from me.I certainly dont want to be that person who quits even before trying.And I guess outsider's perception of me does matter....... a lot in fact....haha...12K b...remember?And he didnt even utter a word of disappointment.....I mean I would.Coz its not $12 b..$12k.I am forever indebted.....I hope a few more years of chauffering your mum and you will make up for the damage...I hope...haha.....Just kidding b..Honestly,I dont mind driving a camry b....Who doesnt...12k?What was i thinking bodoh.....(and I can hear u thinking,he wasnt obviously in your head......swear)Me and the general had a decent conversation recently...hmm..It went well except for the fact that he kept turning his head everywhere else except my direction and so,on many occassions I was like huh?.......damn hilarious...haha...

ok.Now Im really pissed off

What did I not do right?I mean,my advice fell on deaf ears whereas all I was trying to do was to prepare them for the many2 more years to come.I blatantly expressed my discomfort whey they went for a shopping spree.I agree its not my money but at the very least,use it sparingly coz God knows whats in it for them a few years down the road.Dont get me wrong.I hope and pray it will be a happy ending but I doubt so.At the end of the day,touchwood,if anything goes wrong,ill be the scapegoat.It happened before and at this rate,It will happen again.

For instance.........my brother...

I meant well when I told my mum getting him a bike was really a bad idea.....WHY?
For goodness sake..hes not working.And yes.they bought him a bike whereas I had to work my ass off to get 1 myself......Ill make this a brief 1...What got me really pissed off was the fact that they are going to repair his bike which cost about $1200 instead of letting him fend for himself,be independent,find as solution as to how they can meet in between.I mean they are spoonfeeding him and Im afraid he will get used to it.And eventually,ill be the the one to clean up the mess.Values are very important and that is what I want to inculcate in bro's head but bailing him out every single time he falls is not helping.....On top of repairing the bike,He will get a new spray paint job for his bike.Wow.It got me asking myself.....I guess he must be doing somthing right to be enjoying all the privileges......He is so different from me....different.Yes,....maybe my parents didnt have money then but that certainly does not give them the excuse/reason to start splurging on him just becoz or maybe they felt bad about not being fiancially able then.....That is obviously wrong............wrong.............

Kudos Liverpool...............

Man who?..haha...Double win over Manchester United was just pre-icing on the cake before they are eventually declared champions.haha......To all the the Liverpool fans out there...You'll never walk alone....sweet revenge.Goals galore....It could have been more though.hmm.Its all worth it.never had doubts....

Yup.I got a job...A bit far but i'll managed.Its been 4 mths since I last had a puff.Incredibly amazing indeed,It wasnt easy though considering i have been a smoker half my life.....But We did it..

Decisions,contemplations,procrastination

wedding in June next year or December next year.......haha..me and sweetie still cannot decide on when is it going to be.Honestly b,both is fine by me...December seems kind of ideal as it gives us more time to build on our foundation financially...hmm...June feels feasible enough considering the fact that I'm on track...so how b?u decide k.Coz I believe guys live by the motto "any delays would be most welcome".haha.....for most at least.I have always feel that 27 is the ideal age to get hitched....so either way is fine.I'll just have to make it come true by end of 2010 coz according to the woman,she'll pack up and leave if theres no wedding by then......Roger b...Next,a house.that's my first priority at this point of time.After much deliberation,we have decided to be more proactive in looking for a house coz I must agree that(being proactive) is lacking in abundance when it comes to choosing a house..........

Next........B,WHY CANT i RIDE?........I mean I seriously want to coz my next working place will be at loyang.The purpose is simply transportation.No hidden agenda...As usual,she will just brush the topic aside.....And there she goes again......

B, I'm thinking of buying the Lacoste shoes......